Only waiting to cast its spell

I'm nothing but a curse, the last one you'd wish !
I know it's hard to let go, but baby, Love is not what i have.
this is pure form of evil, only waiting to cast it spell,
Just go away, far away from the clutches of mine,
for, once i get hold of you, i cannot leave you, for , baby,
this is pure form of evil, only waiting to cast its spell!

Once upon a time, there was me
full of dreams, of only you..

what not did i do to gain the trust,
to make you believe that mine is not lust!

It was the time when i sought only love,
which i buried deep in an alcove, now!

Repent is what comes to mind,
for i have lost you by being blind!

Even if a chance comes by,
I promise I wont come near by!
'coz this is only evil baby, only waiting to cast its spell!

Life pissed me off clasically!!!

So, it happens that I am in my bed thinking about continuing my nap before waking up for a busy day, I get an ISD call, notifying me of something that changed my day.

Something happened and i am feeling uneasy. I want to write so that it takes things off my mind. I should be able to write because i am heart broken now and and wouldn't think of what to write when i am writing. But i am unable to do it. Then it is obvious that i am not heart broken or i didn't love her really to feel any real pain when she is slipping away. Or it might be that i loved her so much that my mind isn't really working to even frame a little sentence. Still, i wrote this much meaning my assumptions of the situation I'm in are really not that true and i am thinking of something else entirely indicating that the pain i feel isn't that hurtful to stop me from thinking about anything else.
But ,
While i am writing this, i let go of all the work i was supervising and now i have no idea whether the work was done in the way it is supposed to done or not. So, that concludes that i have been feeling uneasy and wanted to shift my focus to something else to relieve myself of the pain , since the work i should be doing was not proving effective in making me forget the real pain.
God, this is something else entirely . May be this is the way i should be reacting considering the situation I'm in. But if it is really me, then i should be focusing on my work, not on writing this, since I'm known to be heartless or anti-sentimental  , meaning I'm a machine and these wouldn't bother me even a tiny bit.
I think i should be considering this as a reason to realize that things we fantasize about sometimes aren't gonna happen and i should stop this crap right now and get real.
Thank you life, for pissing me off classically.